"I have considered addrell many many times only to hear from close friends that it will turn me into a bot."

People vary enormously in how they respond to brain drugs, and each drug is different too. You just have to try them and see if you can find a dose where the benefits outweigh the costs. If it doesn't work, all you have lost is a little time and money. (Well, some drugs can be dangerous, but Adderall and friends generally are not.)