Keep up the good work brother. I don't know this particular struggle, but I do know the pain and suffering of having to check your behaviors daily after your body has become hardwired to go another way that is detrimental.
One way I deal with it is to stop feeling sorry for myself:
I follow Rob Jones - a double amputee who has now completed 31 marathons in 31 days:
He talks about the daily struggle you describe - and that's ontop of the struggle of having to learn to walk again; learning to do everything again; and putting your legs on ea. day when your body wants to reject them...
Basically, it really puts things in perspective and makes you thankful for the health you have left.
One way I deal with it is to stop feeling sorry for myself:
I follow Rob Jones - a double amputee who has now completed 31 marathons in 31 days:
https://www.robjonesjourney.com/documentaries/
He talks about the daily struggle you describe - and that's ontop of the struggle of having to learn to walk again; learning to do everything again; and putting your legs on ea. day when your body wants to reject them...
Basically, it really puts things in perspective and makes you thankful for the health you have left.