> why then are you not making your own game in your basement?
I live with my girlfriend in a pretty small apartment. I need to be in a quiet place in order to work on something, and we've been fighting. I have a hard time being next to somebody who doesn't like what I am. We have been arguing a lot and she just can't accept the fact that unemployment is a reality of today's society. So I feel like I'm at fault, and it's been very hard to focus on stuff that matters to me.
> Have you tried looking for professional help?
I see a psychiatrist, but there have been less and less sessions, and I did not see my psychiatrist for maybe 3 months now. That reminds me right now that I should try to get an appointment.
Try getting a new psychiatrist if the one you currently see is ineffective. Sometimes people say you just have to find the right therapist to really see progress.
Also, if you hate programming, you will always be mediocre and unenthusiastic. Nobody likes working with unexcited people. So break away from what you hate. I studied finance and had trouble finding a job. I didn't realize how much I hated it until I stopped forcing myself to keep trying. I found that I really liked programming and now I have a job in the technology field (though it is not cutting edge. I'm still only just beginning though!)
Your girlfriend is still with you. If you sense that your girlfriend hates you, you still have a chance to turn things around. Why don't you compensate in other ways? Finding a job takes time. In the mean time, do things to make her happy or clean up around the house, cook, etc.
I live with my girlfriend in a pretty small apartment. I need to be in a quiet place in order to work on something, and we've been fighting. I have a hard time being next to somebody who doesn't like what I am. We have been arguing a lot and she just can't accept the fact that unemployment is a reality of today's society. So I feel like I'm at fault, and it's been very hard to focus on stuff that matters to me.
> Have you tried looking for professional help?
I see a psychiatrist, but there have been less and less sessions, and I did not see my psychiatrist for maybe 3 months now. That reminds me right now that I should try to get an appointment.