I've seen people post on HN a bunch and receive some good advice. I need some advice, and maybe some motivation.
I hope to god my story is interesting enough for people to help. I need it to be.
I'm at the point where I basically hate school. I have 2 semesters after this before I graduate. The school I go to is in my opinion a shit hole. I love the people, they are people trying their best after all and this is a real university that does research (bla bla bla), but I can't stand what I'm learning, how I'm learning it, and the rest of it.
I took some online classes in OS and Database Structures... I also didn't keep up with the lectures. No big deal, the classes aren't hard for me anyways, but the classes also take some questions from the class and ask for those specific answers on the test. I almost failed my midterm today that had the easiest questions... if you watched the lectures that is. I get so unmotivated in classes because I correct everything and everyone. It feels like I can't trust anything I learn here. At this point I'm getting the piece of paper and being done with it so I can actually have time to learn...
I'm working at an awesome place with some of the smartest at my school where we do client work together, but while I was learning iOS with some python/django too and going to be moving away from the shit PHP work I'm doing I have lost all my time for that with school and actual work to do. I need the money.
I avoid doing work to hang out with my girlfriend. She doesn't know it, and if she did she'd tell me to get my work done. She is also dealing with things too and I don't want to lean on her.
I'm so angry and unmotivated and generally uncomfortable with my own skin today. What in the hell is wrong! I know it will pass, but how long? How many things will I ignore or fail at until I snap out of it? How many times?