I haven't had a startup fail, but as a freelancer I've had some 'feast' times and some 'famine' times so I relate to feeling haunted by yourself over your decisions.
If you need somebody to talk to, please feel free drop me a line tomhodgins@gmail.com and at the very least I can listen and share in what you're going through.
In the meantime, here's a little perspective trick I learned, there's a phrase in English that we used when something happened that actually works on two layers: "it came to pass".
In 2014 it came to pass that verysadpanda's startup finally breathed it's last. It came to pass that verysadpanda's relationship faltered and came to a close. But it came....TO PASS. It won't always be this way, it's all temporary!
It also came to pass that verysadpanda felt sad, and before long totallyfinepanda came back out again.
Best of luck in the days and weeks ahead, but you're not nearly as alone as you feel :)
If you need somebody to talk to, please feel free drop me a line tomhodgins@gmail.com and at the very least I can listen and share in what you're going through.
In the meantime, here's a little perspective trick I learned, there's a phrase in English that we used when something happened that actually works on two layers: "it came to pass".
In 2014 it came to pass that verysadpanda's startup finally breathed it's last. It came to pass that verysadpanda's relationship faltered and came to a close. But it came....TO PASS. It won't always be this way, it's all temporary!
It also came to pass that verysadpanda felt sad, and before long totallyfinepanda came back out again.
Best of luck in the days and weeks ahead, but you're not nearly as alone as you feel :)