I had a relationship turn that way, too, and had the same reaction - it took way too long to recognize what had happened and to step back and realize what I had to do. I didn’t want to admit it was over, I didn’t want to admit I’d been wrong, and I didn’t want to let go of the future I’d been imagining. When I got out, I looked back and realized I’d basically played the exact script from every story you ever hear about that kind of relationship - you know, the story where you hear it and say “that was stupid, I’d have just…”, except it turns out I wouldn’t have just, because I didn’t.

All that’s a long way to say I’m sorry for what you went through, and if any of what I’ve said resonates, you’re not alone and I encourage you to forgive yourself.

Enjoy your Christmas. Being alone ain’t the worst thing in the world.