I felt nothing, I different. I had a great relationship with him.
Seeing my non-reaction, my mum said : "you can cry".
So I thought: "oh, so I should cry now, that's the appropiate thing to do in these situations", then I started crying.
Sure, there's nothing special about that. Many people are too young to understand the finality of death when they first encounter it. Death becomes harder the older you get. When my grandmother died this year I felt a much heavy series of emotions than just sadness. It's the finality of it that gets you.
My mum came and said: "your cousin died".
I felt nothing, I different. I had a great relationship with him.
Seeing my non-reaction, my mum said : "you can cry". So I thought: "oh, so I should cry now, that's the appropiate thing to do in these situations", then I started crying.