I feel you. In addition, I'm on a nightly hypnotic. Both the insomnia and the marginally effective drugs are implicated in dementia and I'm beginning to make my peace with it. Medicine has no answers and doctors don't usually take it very seriously.
I have a plan when it starts to show up, or if the strings of terrible days get to be just a little too long.
Dementia is one thing but a string of terrible days is worth holding out till the end. If you're having trouble making the equation work for you, my advice is to devote yourself to alleviating the pain of others. Works for me anyway. Hopefully it's a universal approach.
I have a plan when it starts to show up, or if the strings of terrible days get to be just a little too long.
I'm in such a string right now.