I feel you. I'm gonna be honest, I've lost count of my attempts(solo or with others) for a course of 12 years. 2 years ago I completely gave up. This isn't an endeavor that anyone can take. Some of us are not built for it. As strange as it may sound, this is something best suited for people who are average at most related fields (marketing, sales and development) with slightly above average skills in one area. If your skills in any of those areas excel all others, you are doomed to fail. In my case I can easily devote a ton of effort to the tech side of things at near 0 mental cost and I'll go to insane lengths to make something perfect. The moment I step out of this field and have to face any of the other two, I can stare at a blank page for days not knowing what to do and feel mentally drained afterwards. When I came to realize this, I was kinda bummed, not gonna lie. My advice: don't sweat it and move on. Not worth spending effort thinking what it might have been: it isn't and it won't be so you shouldn't care. Simply move on.
Daily job: apart from it I have plenty of time on my hands: wfh, no family or kids, my diet strictly utilitarian(the most complicated meal I make is an omelette which takes less than 3 minutes), I am incapable of sleeping for over 6 hours/day. I've always had at least 6-7 hours a day to dedicate to whatever I want to do(usually more).
