Negativity has been trained into you. I would venture a guess that you have never tried gizzards, liver, chicken feet, etc. The thought of eating them disgusts you, but you really don't know. You were trained to be this way, and there's only 1 way to fix this. Repetition, just like how you learn anything else. Repeat to yourself anything and it will become so.
Another point, you have 3 large luggage. You can only carry 1, they are that heavy. You need to learn to only try to carry 1. What is that luggage called? Past, Present, Future. You can only carry the present. If you try to carry the past, you will constantly remind yourself of negatives in the past. You will get caught up in the past and not live the present. The future is even worse because you literally dont know what's coming, if you try to lift the future luggage you will break your back. Live only in the present, dont concern yourself with the past negativity. You just need to be positive from now on.
Another point, you have 3 large luggage. You can only carry 1, they are that heavy. You need to learn to only try to carry 1. What is that luggage called? Past, Present, Future. You can only carry the present. If you try to carry the past, you will constantly remind yourself of negatives in the past. You will get caught up in the past and not live the present. The future is even worse because you literally dont know what's coming, if you try to lift the future luggage you will break your back. Live only in the present, dont concern yourself with the past negativity. You just need to be positive from now on.