It's kind of a fork on the road yeah? I went through a similar process...
It turns out I had real issues with CPTSD and other things going on that interfered with my ability to perform at work. What's worse, I didn't even know I was this bad.
Your reasons may be different. I actually really like doing my job even though I know I'm not the best.
for my case I had to stand back and realize what was actually really important to me and what would it take for me to just really throw myself into a job, to really just get good at something. It's kind of hard to say with your situation cuz it could be different you know?
For me, it was figuring out what exactly high-performing meant, what it took to achieve excellence and what the path looks like. There were also drugs involved.
I'm reading some anxiety in your message, like looking weird etc. does it really look weird or is it something that you're just sort of afraid of?
All I have is shitty advice, but I went through what you went through. :-( I don't know what you're specific situation is but your story reads a lot like mine
It turns out I had real issues with CPTSD and other things going on that interfered with my ability to perform at work. What's worse, I didn't even know I was this bad.
Your reasons may be different. I actually really like doing my job even though I know I'm not the best.
for my case I had to stand back and realize what was actually really important to me and what would it take for me to just really throw myself into a job, to really just get good at something. It's kind of hard to say with your situation cuz it could be different you know?
For me, it was figuring out what exactly high-performing meant, what it took to achieve excellence and what the path looks like. There were also drugs involved.
I'm reading some anxiety in your message, like looking weird etc. does it really look weird or is it something that you're just sort of afraid of?
All I have is shitty advice, but I went through what you went through. :-( I don't know what you're specific situation is but your story reads a lot like mine