I'm afraid there's not much to be done about that, other than finding something you're actually interested in.
Me, I've accepted that I probably won't become much better at what I do, and there's more important things to worry about than my performance. Like beer and video games.
Every activity is ultimately like sending money and energy to /dev/null. Meditating on a mountaintop is not inherently more fulfilling than playing playing a great video game, just because it is more "respectable".
I think people get trapped by always feeling the need to perfectly optimize their lives, without asking for what they are optimizing.
Disagree. Playing video games is so much fun and relaxing compared to the stress of work and Covid and daily life that I'm 100% sure it's net-positive if it's <= 10 hours/week.
Me, I've accepted that I probably won't become much better at what I do, and there's more important things to worry about than my performance. Like beer and video games.