What I really want to know is if taking all this adderall to beat my axon terminals into submission and pump out dopamine + block re-uptake is going to cause an early onset of an Alzheimer-esque neurodegeneration when I'm approaching my senior years.
This hypothetical sends chills down by spine knowing I might be making a deal with the devil to get a temporary fix on ADHD symptoms now for increased risk of dopamine downregulation or neurodegeneration later.
Can anyone relate and/or give me some peace of mind? ~60mg/day for 12 years and not letting up anytime soon as long as I need my executive functions under my command to do computer work. If I drop the stimulants I can maybe get a low wage job doing basic IT service desk stuff or live a simple life doing a 'muscle memory' line of work e.g. Amazon factory worker, go to trade school for something hands on, etc. that doesn't require asynchronous access to my prefrontal cortex + memories + instantaneous storage/retrieval with my working memory for hours on end.
God I envy neurotypical people, I feel handicapped mentally in comparison to their baseline.
This hypothetical sends chills down by spine knowing I might be making a deal with the devil to get a temporary fix on ADHD symptoms now for increased risk of dopamine downregulation or neurodegeneration later.
Can anyone relate and/or give me some peace of mind? ~60mg/day for 12 years and not letting up anytime soon as long as I need my executive functions under my command to do computer work. If I drop the stimulants I can maybe get a low wage job doing basic IT service desk stuff or live a simple life doing a 'muscle memory' line of work e.g. Amazon factory worker, go to trade school for something hands on, etc. that doesn't require asynchronous access to my prefrontal cortex + memories + instantaneous storage/retrieval with my working memory for hours on end.
God I envy neurotypical people, I feel handicapped mentally in comparison to their baseline.