The first time I've used weed I had one too. I still do not enjoy weed. I've microdosing mushrooms and then I was way more relaxed when I took a large dose for the first time. I was scared in the begginning, and sensing an increase in my anxiety because my GF was watching me sober, then I excused myself and laid down on the bed, watching the sky with music on the earphones. I've concluded that I can't have a nice time with drugs having people with me.