Why? You seem to imply that there is a progress or goal to meditation, or that there is one desirable, expected, outcome. I am not sure I agree to such a thing.
Meditation is a different to different people. I am happy what meditation is to me, and I see no reason—nor do I want to—change it.
Why did you start? What was your original goal or purpose?
Parent poster talked about getting relaxation and focus but also said after years that is all they got out of the experience.
If their is another goal or desired outcome then challenging yourself will allow for greater development. Parent poster is stuck in a comfortable place and there is nothing wrong with that but in order to advance more work is required.
