The old adage "write drunk, edit sober" applies here. The real point is to stop censoring. Writing is really two skills:

- Building the habit - Being comfortable editing out things that don't work

BTW, the your original post came across clearly and was solidly written. Your prose will come with practice :)

Get to it! :D

Edit: Hilariously, this is also on the front page now, https://goinswriter.com/write-drunk/ but they are being disingenuous in their interpretation.