Your question does not compute. I literally get a compiler error when I try to parse it.
Look everyone wants to be loved. There is nothing wrong with that and it is perfectly natural. But you gotta love yourself first, or the rest of the stuff is going to feel empty.
So what I am saying is -- are you doing what you are doing because YOU love it, or because you think you can get other people to love you by doing it? Did you go to concerts and parties because you liked the music and the beer, or did you go because you wanted people to think you are cool for going? Do you want to start coding again because you love the joy of creation, because you love discovering the elegance in ideas, or are you doing it because you weren't able to be accepted by "mainstream" society and you are now trying to get approval again from a different group?
Look everyone wants to be loved. There is nothing wrong with that and it is perfectly natural. But you gotta love yourself first, or the rest of the stuff is going to feel empty.
So what I am saying is -- are you doing what you are doing because YOU love it, or because you think you can get other people to love you by doing it? Did you go to concerts and parties because you liked the music and the beer, or did you go because you wanted people to think you are cool for going? Do you want to start coding again because you love the joy of creation, because you love discovering the elegance in ideas, or are you doing it because you weren't able to be accepted by "mainstream" society and you are now trying to get approval again from a different group?