Try getting into Tesla then. I doubt you’ll be happier. It can all feel meaningless unless you’re the top dawg making the decisions on strategy and direction. Try creating something on your own, it won’t make any money but if you enjoy that then you know it’s not because you needed to something that was changing the world but something you had more skin in the game for. The control and risk and reward is exhilarating. If you don’t enjoy doing your own thing then try your best to get in somewhere you think is doing something you consider worthwhile. If you don’t enjoy that you may just need a break. Call up mom and dad if they’re alive and ask for a life break. Depending on your parents that may not be worth it, I’d get angry stares personally if I sat around.