What I got was that she thinks her prior actions, although incorrectly reasoned, were still reasoned.
It's almost but importantly not identical to "Based on what I knew at the time, I was correct. Based on what I now know, I was incorrect" - except that part of the "what I knew" was how herself was functioning.
As a child, I always used to hate the phrase "that's just an excuse". I'd do something my parents didn't like, they'd ask why, I'd answer, they'd reply - that's just an excuse. It's not, it's the causal reason [that I could identify].
She saying she did things based on actual reasons. She's also saying that those reasons, in hindsight, were wrong, and that those resulting actions were wrong. She's accurately reporting the emotional states at the relevant times. This is a good thing.
What I got was that she thinks her prior actions, although incorrectly reasoned, were still reasoned.
It's almost but importantly not identical to "Based on what I knew at the time, I was correct. Based on what I now know, I was incorrect" - except that part of the "what I knew" was how herself was functioning.
As a child, I always used to hate the phrase "that's just an excuse". I'd do something my parents didn't like, they'd ask why, I'd answer, they'd reply - that's just an excuse. It's not, it's the causal reason [that I could identify].
She saying she did things based on actual reasons. She's also saying that those reasons, in hindsight, were wrong, and that those resulting actions were wrong. She's accurately reporting the emotional states at the relevant times. This is a good thing.