I did not say "does not matter / it's the same". It was more like a point, how one thing (less alcohol) might does influece something else (fewer children).
In this case it's bittersweet, sadly. Can never muster the time or energy to devote myself to them because working for the man is way too tiring but also inescapable...
And yep I'm grateful that I have a curious nature.
"i've been genuinely embarrassed" --> "yep, totally not my fault actually"
"I should have known" --> "other people fucked this up, and they didn't even inform me"